Lately I've been finding myself in these ruts. It's caused me to do a lot of soul searching and without even realizing it was happening, I stopped participating in social media and I stopped posting here.
At first I beat myself up. My internal dialog told me that I should be putting posts up that I long ago took photos for. That I should be checking in with my twitter friends so they don't forget about me. That I should be engaging on my Facebook page to get more likes. That I need to catch up with all my favorite blogs. It made me feel really, really bad. Because I didn't want to do any of those things. I mean I DID want to do those things, just not right then.
After a week or two I realized I wasn't doing any of those things because that's precisely what I needed to do. I needed to give myself a break. Literally and figuratively.
I'm going through a bit of a transition trying to figure out how to move my business into the future instead of just going with whatever is thrown at me. And, as I'm trying to figure that out, I realized that I was spending so much energy on what OTHER people are doing. And THAT is what was making me feel so bad. It seemed that everywhere I turned there was a beautiful post, an amazing success story, celebratory tweets. Of course these are all great things, but as I searched my (business) soul I realized my brain was becoming clogged with the "maybe I should do that" or "how come that hasn't worked for me" and "what am I doing wrong." Not very positive or helpful, eh?
So I stopped feeling bad about ignoring twitter and neglecting blog posts and decided to just let it last as long as it does. Who knows, maybe I'm done now. Maybe not. I do know this has become a good reminder for me- even if it's just a moment in a hectic day to step outside and offer gratitude for the blue sky and green grass.
How about you? Do you ever feel this way? I feel like we're afraid to admit it, because then somehow we're saying we're less than someone else. But really, that's just silly when you think about it, isn't it?
Download the desktop below as a reminder to give yourself a break.